the life of me

With each day that passes and with each conversation we've had, I find myself closer and closer to clarity. A state of mind where I am at peace and full of acceptance. What is meant to be mine will be mine, and what is not meant to be mine will never be mine I finally understood this fully and finally accepted it with all my heart. And so now there is no more anger in me. No more trying to outrun the other party, no more trying to win. There's nothing to be won and there's nothing to lose anymore. There's always going to be some sort of confusion over what has happened and there's always going to be things left unsaid. But, I have always been clear on what my heart wants and it will always remain the same. The only difference now is that I no longer push for what I want. I merely wait in patience. And I admit, patience has always been my weakness. Truth be told, this is the first time that I have been this patient, and though others might not say the same, w...

if i had known that our last kiss would be our last kiss, i would have never stopped kissing you. if i had known that the last time i laid my eyes on you as my other half would be my last time, i would have never taken my eyes off you if i had known that the last time you held me in your arms would be the last time you do so, i would have held on tighter and longer if i had known that the last time i talk to you dearly would be my last time, i would have spoke nothing but loving words as i struggle to hold on to every detail of your face, from the creases on your forehead, to the tiny mole on your temple, i cant help but think just how much time we have wasted on unnecessary fights and silences. all those times we could have spent building more memories that would have kept us together, we threw it away for nothing more important than to feed our egos and you would think that it is hypocritical of me, as i sit here in silence, biting my tongue to whatever you have said. but what...